Finally Became Santa Claus

Receiving call from Bernard is usually something related to camp stuffs and yep, he called me today to ask if I could replace him for some meeting on Monday. I agreed and realized after a while the things I need to prepare -.- Quite disturbed by it and especially I'm busy preparing Nicholas 21st birthday present.

Carrying these 2 burden and I went to cwp to source for some ideas. Wanted to buy a Esprit shirt for him but I did not. Guess what? I left my 21st birthday present - Fred Perry wallet in Uni Qlo fitting room. Wth. When I rushed back to find it, it was already missing. Well I hope the kind soul would return my precious wallet back to me, though I doubt he/she will.

Things lost:
1) $36
2) EZ-Link Card
3) Safra Card
4) Chervon Card
5) Ngee Ann Student Card
6) Ngee Ann Alumni Card
7) National Library Card
8) St Games Membership Card
9) POSB Go Card
10) UOB Visa Card
11) SAF 11B
12) Camp Pass
13) ISAC Card

Lord pls save me from this trouble!

Promotion

Promoted to Platoon Sergeant after I came back from Hokkaido. Life's been much better and stable ever since the promotion. Just worried about the TOUGH trainings I have to go through during the course. Hope I don't need to go through the course.

Been spending a lot recently on movies and food. Luckily mum reminded me haha! Bought new exercising equipments and it seems quite useful though I only use one of them lol.

Been trying to ask ppl out but I'm giving up now haha since I have spent so much.

Should I continue with my driving lessons now that my O level english is over?

My last chance next year to get into the uni lol... Gotta come out with an alternative plan just in case.

Boredom

Stopped blogging for months. Hmm been leading have a very uncertain schedule due to "Chao Geng" ppl and some who like to change the schedule w/o notifying everyone. Still, I have to admit that I'm lucky to be earning infantry pay when I don need to "chiong sua". Was told that I'll finally become a permanent spec in CMPB. Wonder if it's a good or bad choice.

One more month before I face my O lvl english paper. Let's hope I'll be able to achieve at least a B3 :)

The thought of going to church makes me feel so bored. Everyone has their own programmes, their own cliques and that makes this church looks so boring to me. It seems so fun to go out wif church members after service but in BPMC, LOL!!! Maybe it's time to find another church, afterall, I dont grow up in the church. Seriously, SIAN.... Zzz

Wanted to go for bball but JW n Ernest seems so restless recently, wana stay at home hmmm LOL!!! I need to exercise!

Lost, again

Rejection from 3 local universities again. NTU letter came first and I thought...hmm I can take it... 2 days later, another 2 came and here I am, sitting in front of my lappy blogging about it. I don get it and should I say I've finally gotten the answer from You? I asked if going to the 3 universities was where You wanted me to go since You gave me a GPA of 3.6 but yet, I'm rejected thrice in 2 years consecutively. I really feel like a loser now. Yep there's definitely people facing much worst situation than this but I wana know truely, if this is wad You have planned for me or that is there something I should do first?

Fame, recognition, girls were some of the factors, I'm sure of it. You were not one of the factors I have considered when i'm applying for uni, maybe that's where I had gone wrong but how do I put You as one of the main factor? I cant see the link!!! It feels dam shitty now.

I'm retaking O's this year but I have yet to start studying. There's just too many distractions around. For some reason, I kind of find that my englihs really sucks to the core. Simple vocabulary and I dont even understand it. Lord! I've paid for the exams. Taken the first step already so pls continue to guide me. Comfort me as You know it's hard for me to accept rejection from the uni I truely wish to enter.

What I really need now is wisdom, strength and faith. Guide me O lord before I break apart. Whatever the outcome is, I just prayed that I'll be able to accept it with a open mind :)

Time to show who's the strong one here...

Faith In Christianity?

Been waiting for weeks. Came back from sony service centre and my instincts tell me today is the day. Saw the postman delivering the letters and I stood beside him hoping to see the letter. All the letters were of the same size which would means that it can only be of the same result last year. True enough. NTU. WHy? 3.6? Isnt it good enough? This is my second year trying. I've been working hard and waiting for the day to gain entry to the 3 local uni and what now? What is it that you want of me? I'm just wasting my time, energy, money and effort for nothing. I cant see you, I cant hear you and I cant feel you. All I know is, I'm living each day by faith in you, by my own assumptions that everything is running smoothly.

I know, it'll be the same outcome for smu. My last hope, NUS.

Sigh... I drifting further and further away from this faith. I want it back. I want to be a good example, a good testimony in whatever I do, for I wana do it for u not me. If this is what you want of me, then pls stop me from all my wishful thinking.

Updates

Who was the one who said he'll upload the photos within one or two days? LOL!!! As usual, busy and commitments were the excuses he gave. Haha! I don blame him for that of course, afterall I'm the one who's craving for the photos hahahaha! Potential new dp for my facebook. LOL! I still appreciate the effort of him uploading the photos and tagging me hahaha thanks! And btw, both of you gotta know my tone when I type something, whether is it casual or out of anger!!! Come on! You should be able to tell lol.

It's 10 May today. How many of the lazy bums have already made the effort to go online and reject the uni's offer? As long as they dont, I might not be able to receive the letter any sooner and worse come worse, a rejection letter again? Cant wait for the results!!!!

I'm sick of working though it's not physically straining. Guess I'm putting on weight already. My stress comes from the schedule and selfish ppl playing stunts on me. God! Protect me from all these ppl!!! I'm really bored from working!!! Brought the book ding yue lent me and some o lvl eng materials to read up but I just cant find the motivation to study for my o's!!!

Was talking to one of the regimental guards and suddenly he just told me that he thought I was a chinese speaking guy and I was stunned. Yep all along I'm one. He asked me if I was, and yep I admitted. WOo hoo!!! A good sign. What's left now should be none other than my writings!!!

Went to catch thor with ernest at cwp right after work. Kai ying's working at cathay now haha! Anyway the show was really nice and touching!!! Much better than I had expected.

I need some motivation!!!!!

Aliens Vs Predators

Aliens vs predators? It's as good as saying the aliens are the preys. Yea that's wad's happening to me currently. I'm new and we're the one of the first few batch of elites posted to this new place. We're alien to them of course. I thought this group of guys I'm with are my allies but some are starting to prey on me instead. Arent we comrades? What happened? Trying to fight for a better life irregardless of whether I'll be the one suffering more? What's this? Cant I even have a epaceful off day? I was "eaten" up a few times and I just kept quiet w/o trying to drag you down the pool with me so why are u doing this? LOL! Who can I really trust?

This is not a movie but a real problem I'm facing. We need manpower!!! Why's all of us so stressed up? It's not physically straining for sure but mentally. Sigh... when will there be any changes???

Pray for me :) Just hope every single day is a peaceful and enjoyable day for me. If only I stayed behind in my alien planet. That's what we will face when we get transferred to a new planet. SIGH..... Pray for me :)

A Night of Fellowship

Slept late last night and woke up late for sure haha. Never really think before I agreed to go watch fast & furious with simon and wei hong. Regretted after a few mins cos it's time for me to save up!!! Been spending alot on foods and transportations. Luckily, tickets were sold out BUT simon insisted on watching it back at JP so we left town early and I went straight to josh's hse. Watched NBA awhile till I fall asleep. Dam sleepy today. Kinda lazy to go for night prawning but since I agreed to go, no choice then LOL!!!

To my surprise, it was quite interesting lol! Caught 4 prawns with josh. Not bad for a first try. Enjoyed the night and thks josh for sending me home haha! Took quite a no. of photos and YEA thks to josh again hahaha! Just realized I'm the opp of josh. I'm always the one runnning behind one's back whereas he's always the one running at the front line. Not bad ah!!! Too charming and charismatic hahaha! Same goes to norman la.... happy? HAHAHA!

The thought of booking in tmr pisses me off LOL!!!!

The Start of A Healthy Lifestyle

Basketball is always there for you, it never forsakes you LOL!!! Some logic it is lol! Thank God I'm having stand-by slot this 2 days. Yep, lucky I had the L2 & L3 guys with me. Used the free time for PT, basketball & pool. At least that's wad kept my mind occupied this few days. Back to 24 hours shift tml. I really need something to keep my mind occupied.

Looking at hw many photos she had recently uploaded n yet never really did upload the photo we took tgt lol. Ouch! lol! Maybe I'm too persimisstic but after what had happened, I just cant bring myself to believe her anymore. Everyone tells me that if you think she's the one, don give up but the same negative thoughts start surfacing in my mind. Just how many silly guys out there whom have been willingly to get tricked? Or maybe they really treat her as a normal friend?

Given a choice, should I stay as a replacement specs or a permanent staffs at either CMPB or Maju?

April is coming to an end. There it goes, the first window of acceptance. Will it be a repeat of history?

As much as I want, I would like to hear what you wana say to hear. Calm me down and speak to me. Guide me as I face each new days.

A Repeat of History

Took 1 whole weeks, gathering informations about different places, brainstorming ideas, thinking of what I can do just for that one date lol! Yep I've never really did that before. Thinking back of wad I had done. Oh my, cant believe I'm so sweet haha. Take it as an experience then. Everything came to a waste when she demanded a change of place so yep, all efforts were wasted. Didnt really rest after I dismounted from work. Went JP earlier to recce the place n yep she came just in time for movie. Waited for an hour plus and her reason for being late is, no reason :)
Should have realize something's wrong. Just too soft hearted.

Didnt want to reveal this part of my life to my bro n sis cos yep just like norm, unless i'm confident of it, if nt better keep it low. News spreaded out really fast and the next day, I realized everything ended.

After thinking about it, I just realize maybe God is speaking to me through the movie i watched with her? A chinese Ghost Story HAHA! I'm just being hypnotized lol. Realizing how silly I was but yet I couldnt pull myself out of it but for some reason, I managed to do it ytd? She promises things she cannot does. So yep, that's just how serious she is. I'm considered lucky. Just look at the number of guys queuing up, not knowing the true fact. Does saying this makes her look like a really awful person?

Now now everyone in church must be thinking... (this guy sure changes target really fast) .... for some reason that's the feelings I got from one of them LOL! Maybe I'm too skeptical.

I give up. It doesnt seems like the real thing will come anywhere. Yep yep wait wait and wait lol! Maybe it's just becos of myself. There will not be another similar case. Gotta ensure this does nt happen again. Cant believe how much I had lowered myself to be... I'm afterall ...HAHA...

Norman and joshua... LOL! Wad u guys said is so true. Maybe becos u're not spellbinded lol.... A player keeping her options opened. SIGH!!!! Why am I so stupid LOL!!!!

What You Have In Mind For Me?

Come on!!! I thought it was time to let it go and here comes another trick? Pull, release and pull again... COME ON!!!! Wad is it that you have planned for me. I've a small heart!!! Cant take it!!! I've been pestering you in my prayers DAILY!!!! Stop me while I'm still able to do so b4 it's too late!!! Looking back at wad I've done, I cant thought but thinking how silly I am, even ppl around me are laughing at me. PPl say you want us to go through some kind of experience so that we'll grow? I've been through this kind of situation b4, haven't I?

She knows I don't feel right when she don't replies but yep, she never really make it a point to change. Who am I to have her change for me too? But yep if I'm impt to her she should right??? LOL!!! Complicated!!! Do you know she's my source of motivation? I'm gg to sleep sonn so pls tell me in my dream LOL!!!! Sound like a little boy but yea.. no matter how we look or how old we are, we're still a child of your's :)

Soo han got accepted from smu already!!! Mine's still processing hmm surely not thank you letter again?

YEP QUITE pissed off when NORMAN ignored my msg.... didnt appear in fb but my BLOG!!! HAppy, norman??? HAHAHA! Everything turned out well. WEnt for lunch @ Bpp macs! Had my cheapkate meal hahaa

GG to sleep soon n doing the silly thing again..... SIGH.... why so stupid!!! I just cant stop, tell me it's nt the wrong move pls!!! I need some encouragements!!! Hopefully my "sweeties" in church receive some enlightenment from sermon today and give me some encouragements pls hahahaha! Starting my 48 hours tmr!!! How shagged can it be!!! Overslept in bus today!!!

Tell me in my dream today LOL!!! Come on!!! I've never try this kind of thing before... Surely you wont wan me to pester u daily bout the same thing?

From The Waltz Disney - Beauty & The Beast

HA! Cant really think of a suitable title for this post. Just when I thought life in NS gotta get better, received a msg for replacement duties next week. Will be working 48 hours!!! It's only my second week and I got such schedule already lol.

Anyway everything started about 6 years ago. Added this beauty over at friendster. Yep it's always the case, seeing pretty girls and just when you realized it, she's already one of the few inside your friends list haha. Hardly talk to each other. 5/6 years had passed and yep, this girl, appeared in my facebook. As usual, seldom talk, the most would be sending birthday wishes annually via facebook.

The story begins when she left a msg in my facebook with her no. :) For a moment I thought I struck jackpot. LOL! What else can be more joyful than having the no. of a beauty; that was what I thought initially. It all started with webcam! LOL! She looks just as reflected in her photos. Beautiful and elegant. One who appreciates arts, is a dancer, sporty, gentle, intelluctant and beautiful. Just like my dream girl haha. For a moment, I thought God has answered my prayers haha! There's nth more happier than this hahahaha.

Facts start surfacing after the very first day of webcaming. Just like a silly child, I've been waiting day and night for her reply and to see her online again. Sound like a drama? hahaha! It never really did turns out well. She has a habit of not replying msges? Even though she might has an appt wif me and something cropped up suddenly, she always fails to inform me so yea, there I am, sitting right in front of my laptop waiting till I almost fall asleep. Tried reasoning with her but hmm i forgot what has happened. Some things she did, some very little things, I find it quite sweet haha. At least she keeps my heart beating fast. At the moment I thought I had finally found the right girl and here comes my new motivation.

There's just too many unfinished stuffs I can't wait to tell her, to chat with her but she doesnt have the time for me. Always busy and yea, I was never a priority sadly. My first week in the new unit was tough but thanks to her presence virtually, I managed to pull through. Appreciate this "online friend" of mine and yea our r/s turned to normal friends when I saw her at vivo yesterday. Like finally haha. Thought it would be a start of a new saga but things never really did change. Always wanted to meet up with her, a proper meet up and yes she agreed. I was even "threatened" to do something in order for her to agree to meet up with me. Mischievous and interesting girl indeed haha! However, till now we have failed to meetup. I do understand she wants to takes things slowly but this is way too slow, I'm just wasting all my time waiting for her. I hate to think like this but she doesnt really seems to be serious about .... you know? haha... sadly.... Telling myself, as long as she's happy, I'll be happy as well but that's utterly bullshit. Cant help but hoping I'm the right one for her hahaha but yep gotta face the reality. I cant stand it anymore. Continue to stay like this and I'm so gonna turn crazy LOL! I start to melt whenever I talk to her, that's just how impactful she is to me but if it continues like this and no improvements can be expected, I'll be the one getting really hurt.

This very special girl, I really want to be by her side but I cant seem to find the key to the door. Time to let it go...

The Replacement Specialist

It was a rather relax week for me. Having "On The Job Training" almost everyday but it's quite straining on my transportation fee. Taking over maju on next mon and wed! Let's hope it's not as tough as wad he said.

Started chatting on mon and one webcam brought us closer lol. Guess being able to see other helps in communication :) A new motivation. Spent my time at home waiting and waiting lol ... Looks so silly but cant help it. Been sleeping really late this few night and I'm dam shagged nw lol.

Received a call from smu for biz interview!!! Next tue 5pm to 8pm!!! Praise the lord!!!

What's The Rationale

Went through the full MP course just to be called a security leader? Arent we supposed to be full fledged MP? What's the rationale behind this? Be it whether are we the first or last batch, it doesnt change the fact we went through the full course. Seems like the recent changes did stir up quite a lot of commotion among us.

Pissed off after looking at my schedule when I thought it might be better for me instead. Came home just to receive a msg saying I'm a sly guy for psycho-ing u to ****??? Did I ever talk to u b4 about anything b4? Weird guy. Spoilt brat. What a bad day it is today. Just what have you prepared for me lord? I don feel like gg back to **** and luckily I'm nt a reserved for tht place but the fact tht my buddy is the one selected, he made quite a big fuss out of it... What is this man... things start to go well for me n bad again while at the same time things started to go bad for ppl staying beside me. Am I to be blamed for this? Someone has to do it anyway. It's just whether is it you or I.

I wont be leading a normal life starting from this week. It feels just like a basketball w/o an owner. You need to be there to be passed around, being thrown into the basket so that people around you get to accumulate points and sadly u're the one suffering... What a cruel fact it is.

Whatever it is, I still believe in you that you had prepared a good plan for me. All I ask for now, is to ease all the conflicts among ourselves - friends....

Attachment @ PAD

Pierce Ammunition Dump? LOL!!! Carried two basketballs to the camp today and it became two longans after the day LOL!!!! RSM LOL!!!! All I want is just to "SAF", now all my public holidays and weekends are burnt for sure cos it's work one day n rest for the nex day lol... Routine life. There's both good n bad points which I may not have find out yet. The only thing I can do now is to put all my trust in God to give me the most suitable option. Shall not worry about it too much sigh...

2PDF - 8th S.I.R

Went to clementi today for "briefing". Felt kinda disappointed after the whole day. There's still lots of uncertainties, posting to some camp for attachment and gotta wait till next week before I start working. Finally posting will only be out this thurs or fri. It's a mount, dismount type of work. Wonder if it's good or bad lol cant be attending church every sunday from nw sian!!!!

It wasnt as good as I had expected in terms of workload. The trainings we have to go through makes it sound as if we're posted to infantry lol but yet...

Quite tired after the whole day LOL!!! Gotta wake up at 4.45am tmr!!! next week gotta start my 24hrs work alrdy!!!! Stress!!! I nid some motivation lol

Combined Arms Training (CAT)

It's great to be back in SCS. Feel great to see my old pals again and this time round, there's a MP arm band on my right arm haha! Of course, wadever I do, others are watching as I'm afterall a law enforcer lol. Missed the time back in MP command haha.

Went out to IT fair hoping to buy something back but apparently nothing caught my eyes. Most of the stuffs are around the same price or more expensive than outside except for TV and Laptops. I'm in need of a Ipod charger!!! Went over to Dell to see yvonne and nice hair style she got there. Glad to see her again. Anyway Billy came to meet nich and chye for clubbing right after we had our dinner. Changed alot indeed. No longer look and sound like the old billy lol.

Gotten have my hair cut tmr... SIGH!!!! It took me such a long time and effort to grow my hair and now.... LOL!!! Registered for O Level English hoping I can score a B3 for it LOL!!! Let's see... $160!!! Gotta work hard for it!!!

Instead of using a few fishing rods, Nich said he used a net instead LOL!!!! What a wise and smart move it is LOL!

Good-Bye, MP Command

It's just another usual week. 2 more days and I will no longer be there anymore. WIll I be converted to a security leader or will I continue to stay as a MP? Trained so hard, stayed throughout the whole course to tell me that I might not get to wear the armband LOL!!! Hope it's not the case. I have come a long way, 8 month in NS already. Never did I expect it to be so tough to obtain a 3SG rank, finally, it's coming to an end.

Thanks to Jeremy who introduced retrosport to me. Went there with simon and got myself a Ben Sherman Tee @ $28 only!!! I need more T shirts lol!!! Went to orchard after that to check out LV stuffs. There's not a single thing I can afford lol!!! Anyway went to get a burberry perfume for julian's birthday as the audio tech headset hasnt reach me yet! Wasted my money!!! I ended up buying one burberry perfume for myself too LOL!!!

Great host as always but I was expecting at least a buffet dinner? LOL! My main dish was watermelon!!!! Julian!!!!!!!!! LOL!!!! Poor Teck Heng for starving himself till Julian's party and just to get watermelon as his main dishes hahaha! Quite a no. of hot girls were there hahaha...

My face is drying up!!! I suppose oxy 10 is really to strong for my skin lol!!!

On The Job Training (OTJ) Week

No more field camp!!! Hurray!!! Haha! Time to take some time to recover from my cough :) No more stress for the time being haha! It's my bro 23rd birthday today, bought marvel vs capcom 3 at $47 for him just now. For some reason I think I might be more happier than he is LOL!!! One stone kills two birds lol!

Cant help but keep feeling excited about the results of my posting tmr!!! Time to become the ideal soldier I have always wanted to LOL!!! With pride I lead.... CAT is coming!!!! It'll be cool to wear my MP uniform in front of the other units!!! HEH!!! Pride, Discipline and honour! Time to "try" getting a better shape again lol!!! LOL always lost in my own fantasy world lol.

It's julian's birthday party this sat. What should I buy for him???

Manage to contact XL again after so long lol and glad she's doing fine. Long way to go, a bright future awaits :)

My Last Field Training Hopefully

The toughest week of my training is coming, cant help but keep thinking of it. Plus I fell sick today. Wad a time to fall sick. Once it's over, there shall be more time to excercise again esp when I go back to SCS for CAT.

Went out with some of my MP peers for lunch n movie - No strings attached. A great movie, another movie that made me fell into my own fantasy again HAHA! Went straight to find simon n hong right after that. Good news were awaiting me haha! It's time to do some shopping this coming weekends!!! Let's see if i'll be able to buy myself some nice clothings and accessories.

Some said I'm getting slimmer but I cant feel it physically!!! That thick layers of fats that's still intact to my tummy!!!! LOL! Just cant seem to get rid of it!!!

I had stop sms-ing. It's not realistic at all.

Hopefully I'll get to play basketball soon too... Keep fit :)

Disconnected

I'm starting to feel like an alien. LOL! Indeed it seems like after I have enlisted, I seem to be disconnected from the outside world. No. of People whom I talk to after enlistment can be counted with my 10 fingers lol.

Had my 2.4km run recently and u wouldnt want to know my timing lol. Running w/o motivation w/o an objective makes a difference.

Applied for the 3 uni last week. Time flies. It's been a year. My 2nd try. For some reason, I have faith this year wud be different but the thought of the huge workload awaiting me gives me a headache.

Bought my ipod touch 3G finally. It's cool just that transferring movies into the ipod is a hassle.

Tried to gym and take protein but it never really did last for evn 2 weeks. LOL!!! Lots of things I want to do but just... LOL hmm lazy? Half hearted? Lack of determination?

Just what are you planning for me lord? U know what I want & need.

Life as An Adult

He asked: Why are u still single!!!??? LOL!

I said: Good qn but I honestly cant see anyone that can keep my heart beating fast LOL!!!

He said: You used the right technique but on the wrong gender, that's why you're still single.

LOL!!!! It's not like you dono lol.. It's really awkward talking to girls like that unless I'm close to them.... I'm afterall a gentleman HA HA HA.... not a flirt lol!!!

Been going out with simon almost every weekends to hunt for tops but to no avail. LOL! Guess the only choice left is to learn from the girls, online shopping!!!! HAHA! Quite successful though. Bought my 1st Fred Perry Polo today @ $72!!! New year clothings!!!! Woo hoo!!! Becoming a Fred Perry Fan already LOL!

Hmm haven been talking to a lot of people recently.... It's usually the same few people haha

Happy 21st Birthday

Was it a miracle??? Wanted to plan a birthday party which I have never done so in my life but just for this 21st birthday. Due to guard duty, it was cancelled. The worse case was, I had to rush to get my project done on monday. I've been praying hard and my prayers were heard. Guard duty was replaced by someone who signed extra. Felt disappointed for him as he's a bro in christ too but gotta thank you for everything lord :)

Timing screwed up in the morning as I had to go for my hair cut. Apparently the auntie wasnt as skilful and ended cutting my neck with the electric shaver. How scary is that??? Lol! My hair!!! It's always the most important part of my body hahaha! Luckily, it's not ugly till the extent that I have to put on a cap 24/7 lol!

Buffet was cancelled but here comes high tea at Goodwoodpark Hotel, 5 star hotel!!! It was great :) The best thing was, I bought a Fred Perry wallet!!!! How cool is that man!!!! Hahaha! I guess though I wasnt able to ask anyone out today but God had a better plan for me haha. I'm pleased with all these things that had happened. Wont ask for anything more :)

Birthday wishes: 不能说的秘密 :)